Some days there are just no words. You find yourself raw and parched, thoughts and spirit racing, and so you pray with tears alone. They course like a river, and no words are necessary. You just cry out. On your face before a mighty God. And you trust and hope in Him alone. And you ask Him to speak. To whisper into your soul. To seep into the deepest empty crevices and fill you back up again. To wash over you in song like a tender lullaby that brings true rest. To rain down mercy and grace. To reign down with power and authority. To show up. To fight for you.
And. He. Does.
And so you trust. And heal. And take a big gulp of His presence, and you breathe Him in. And then you take one more tiny step of obedience.
You, God, are my God, earnestly I seek you;
I thirst for you, my whole being longs for you,
in a dry and parched land where there is no water.
I have seen you in the sanctuary
and beheld your power and your glory.
Because your love is better than life,
my lips will glorify you.
I will praise you as long as I live,
and in your name I will lift up my hands.
I will be fully satisfied as with the richest of foods;
with singing lips my mouth will praise you.
On my bed I remember you;
I think of you through the watches of the night.
Because you are my help,
I sing in the shadow of your wings.
I cling to you;
your right hand upholds me.
{ Psalm 63 }
Standing here in your presence
In a grace so relentless
I am won by perfect love
Wrapped within the arms of heaven
In a peace that lasts forever
Sinking deep in mercy’s sea
I’m wide awake, drawing close, stirred by grace
And all my heart is yours
All fear removed, I breathe you in, I lean into
Your love, oh, your love
Your love so deep is washing over me
Your face is all I seek, you are my everything
Jesus Christ, You are my one desire
Lord, hear my only cry, to know you all my life
{ Sinking Deep, Hillsong }